I think while I was sleeping (literally) a great big Blog Train left the station and I wasn’t on it.
That’d be fine if I was taking another form of transport, but I seem to keep running from station to station, watching its continued journey.
Every now and again, I get distracted with real life, and even have a little fun.
But then boom, I find myself at one of the stations that the train stops at, everyone waves out the window and the train departs.
I look in my empty pocket for the train ticket and the moment looks a bit like this:
This open door moment escapes me:
I know I am doing something wrong.
I know I have got busy with “life” whilst others got busy with blogging.
I know I somehow missed the
I know while others chose left, I seemingly chose right, but until I find another way of boosting my self esteem, it hurts, like really really hurts.
If I read this post a year ago, or in 2009/10/11/ or 2012, I wouldn’t be able to relate to any of what I am saying.
I would probably even think “get over yourself” like you are doing now.
I don’t know what ingredients go into the low-self-esteem cake, but my cake seems to have them all.
Unless you’re in THAT exact moment in time, you won’t relate.
I wouldn’t want you to either. It’s a low, desperate, ugly picture.
Stay on the train, and enjoy the ride. Try not to look out the window, or you may see the ugliness that is me, with my nose pushed up against the glass.
I think I need a social media break, or … or … I don’t actually know what. This lowness that keeps descending on me, seems to get deeper each time it comes.
Like a wishing well that is bottomless. Maybe the water that is my tears will meet the water in the well when I finally reach its bottom.
Perhaps give me a wide berth for now – it ain’t pretty!
By the way I know it is a perilous journey, with no guarantee of a seat, for anyone. I know it's hard work staying on that train.
In fact it looks a bit like this:
Bye for now, enjoy your ride, and say hello to the Ticket Master for me
Wow, my blog was just found by this:
Like I needed another thing to make me feel down today!