Thinking Back on 2014 Looking Forward to 2015 But Not Tomorrow

I seemed to start 2014 FULL of energy if this blog post is anything to go by: New Nurturing Energy, but I am ending it tired. Tired after a late night, tired after an early night. This weekend we did nothing, because the previous weekend we did two much. Deliberate typo there. Two. Two Santas. Two hotels. Two "cities". It might look exciting looking back at the video footage and photos, BUT it was exhausting!

Actually, this post was started so long ago, that I can now say we've had yet another exhausting weekend and yet another Santa, with another one tomorrow: Tuesday 16th December's. Tomorrow's will be the school one, and the FIFTH one Aaron will see December 2014.

So, I think 2015 is going to have to be all about restoring my energy levels, as I can't carry on being tired all of the time like this. I'm good for no one, including myself. 

The water intake will have to be increased. The alcohol consumption will have to be decreased (although it is minimal as it is, my body cannot tolerate acidity at all anymore). My plantar fasciitis is completely affected by acidity, better or worse. I'll need to start juicing and consuming greens again. Being alkaline is always when I am at my best. The yoga that I have been going on and on about for nearly as many years as I used to do it, needs to make a reappearance.

January 2014

2014: a year where Aaron's gone from being a January pre-schooler, riding a balance bike.

He started to ride a 2 wheel bike with pedals in May 2014 a month BEFORE he turned four. Good thing he did, as he started school in September - Reception - and we now cycle to and from school every day. Both bikes have been red and black, and both have been superb. A Chicco Red Bullet balance bike to start followed by an Avigo Mischief 16 inch. Both of his bikes have been put through their paces. The balance bike went everywhere we did every day.

He's great on his bike I couldn't be more proud:

Remaining on January I have just remembered (thanks to photos) that I went to White Tantra in January, my first time doing so since Aaron was born, despite doing so when pregnant. ONE WHOLE day of yoga, and my old radiance was back. It really does me so much good. Eek they've already set the date: White Tantra London Saturday 17th January 2015, I will have to put it in my diary and this time really harness the energy I bring in. White Tantra transforms you for 40 days afterwards.

As early as March 2014, Aaron had already dispensed with a jacket (well so the photo below tells me), so that gives me high hopes that maybe I only need to be cold for just 3 more months :-) I remember how HOT it was in the run up to Easter :-) Here he is with his best mate:

May, if my photos are anything to go by, seems to have been hot AND cold. On a day to Southend with Aaron and ALL of his cousins, it was freezing, yet in the same month we had a day in the park; Aaron played in the sand and it was warm!

Those long legs. I swear my boy will tower over me one day! He can look after his Dear Mum :-)

The good thing I can say, as 2014 ends, is that me and Aaron don't seem to have changed much, as the two Harrods photos, a year apart show:

Harrods do seem to have included too much "floor" in the photo this year though. One big difference is I didn't wear makeup this year, as the morning of Harrods was just too rushed, BUT when I saw Santa again the next day in Westfield Stratford, I made more of an effort.

That jumper above and Aaron's Primark Santa shirt have been like our uniform for all of our many Santa visits.

The jumper is kind of significant as I looked at dozens of Xmas Jumpers before I settled on that one. I've been attracted to all things stags the last few weeks and as I have animal cards I have looked up what it means.

The Stag, Damh in the Gaelic tongue, is also linked to the sacredness of the magical forest. The Damh represents independence, purification, and pride. It is known as the King of the Forest, the protector of its creatures. For time immemorial people have sought to identify with the stag by ceremonially wearing antlered headdresses and imitating the deer's leaping grace. 

Those with the deer as animal totem may be inclined to be constantly on the move, being on the look out for the next opportunity. By affinity with this spirit animal, you may also be watchful of your “predators”, which translate into a tendency to be sometimes overly cautious. It takes time for you to trust someone or feel safe in your environment. 

You can invoke the power of the deer to guide you in getting accustomed to new surroundings and people. This spirit guide might show up in your life to warn you encourage you to trust your instinct. The deer spirit animal will also show up in your life to encourage you to take some time by yourself in a quiet environment to rest or in nature. It invites you to find rest and peace in silence. 

This is the time of year where I start to think about New Year's Resolutions, as I personally believe a more appropriate time to do them, energy wise, is Winter Solstice, i.e. 21st December. Think of them, rather than resolutions, as INTENTIONS. If you set them on 21st, you can have profound things happen in your life. I have done this in years gone by, but not so much since Aaron came along, but it was the energy of Winter Solstice that saw my other blog Conscious Mum be born, not that I have done nearly enough with it.

You can watch video horoscopes to see what is instore, astrologically, 15th to 21st December. There are even additional weekly zodiac videos below specific to your individual star sign. Astrology can be really reassuring as it can explain planetary happenings that have an affect on us, along with lunar cycles/changes.

But back to Winter Solstice, it really is a good time to go within, embrace your heart's desires, and then document them, send them out there, and give your intentions wings. Where your focus goes, energy flows, so they say, and it's true. And, if you don't believe in "energy" or astrology, then be glad of December 21st simply for no other reason than that it is the shortest day of the year. It is onwards and upwards from here on in! You honestly will see the daytime lengthen, and the sunsets get later, by minutes every week from 21st December onwards.

Setting my intentions for 2015 is relatively easy, and numero uno is a pink wish.

Earlier in this post I said Aaron would meet his 5th Santa tomorrow - the school one - and that is actually in addition to his Nativity at 9 am. What I did not say is that today, Monday, I have kept him off school with a high temperature, cough and sore throat. It's not looking good tonight and I am WRACKED with guilt. In 24 years of working, you can count my absence in days on two hands, no more than that. I don't do "sickies" and I don't do late. The thought of Aaron missing his own nativity fills me with dread and worse still, the Christmas Bizarre that is happening from 3 till 5 is a baby of the PTA, of which I am on, meaning I am meant to be at school from 1300 hrs, which if I am at home with a sick child, I cannot do. So as much as I can see lots of lights at the end of lots of tunnels in 2015, I am not channeling it as I finish this post, but am rather feeling awful, like there's no point going to sleep as what exactly am I waking up for. Will he be spritely? Unlikely! Yep, so it will be a cosy day on the sofa, with lots of cuddles, which ordinarily I would LOVE, but not when he and I are both supposed to be somewhere............. yikes, I don't break commitments, it's just not how I am built.

Night night :-(

When Did Xmas Become About Laundry?

I don't remember Christmas ever being about the laundry, but yesterday I decided I did not want to be doing any during Christmas, and that meant doing 4 loads of washing yesterday.  

It is hardly drying weather, in fact this is the wettest Christmas I can remember - today is the 4th day in a row of heavy rain.  Thanks to Daddy, Aaron and I had to walk home from nursery in the rain on Wednesday evening, and my jeans were wet up to the knees.  I don't think I will ever forgive him for that.  We had a similar, but not quite as bad, experience on the way in, Thursday morning.

We live in a flat which does not have space for a tumble dryer, so off I went, with an Ikea bag bursting at the seams, to the laundrette.  Now Aaron hasn't used the buggy for MONTHS.  He walks or scoots everywhere, but sure enough on the way to the laundrette he decides he wants to compete with the Ikea bag and get in the buggy.  I cajoled, I tried everything, but he wasn't having it, so you are not going to believe what I did, and I WISH I had taken a photo, but I sat him up on top of the Ikea bag.  We literally looked like.... well I will let you use your imagination.

Anyway, this was Aaron, while I read the paper, while 4 loads went round and round in ONE industrial sized tumble dryer and it only cost £2. 

This isn't news to me, I have been doing it for 2 Winters now.  And as we had such a wet Summer I was actually in there during the Summer too, unlike last year where I used the clothes line (rotary dryer) for 7 months - such different Summers.  And all his stuff went on the line in 2010 too, the year he was born.  I did a blog post I think, showing all his smalls on the line :-)

Anyway, it is LOVELY!  Because if you fold the items straight out of the hot tumble dryer.  Fold them nicely as if they are about to go on sale, they do not need ironing.

So, yes, hubby HATES me going to the laundrette and thinks it is shameful, but I would much rather fling it all in, FOUR loads in ONE dryer, then fold it all, and when home put it all away and JOB DONE.  Rather that, than what hubby would do, which is have it all on airers round the flat.  You know, even with heating on, the stuff is quite often NOT completely bone dry and I can't bear the flat looking like Widow Twankey's house.

It is very pleasing to me to look at mine and Aaron's wardrobe and see it full.  That pleases me more, than the panic I SHOULD feel that we have SEVEN children to buy Santa for today 22nd December - yes we have not at all been on top of Xmas shopping.  Would you believe we haven't done the food yet either.

So when people have been discussing wrapping presents, I was like wrap what?  I hadn't bought anything yet!

Aaron's main present was delivered by courier yesterday.  Yes I took it right to the wire, and ordered this train set from Play Merrily on 20th December - their last day for Xmas orders - and as promised it arrived yesterday.  PHEW!!!!!
 So back to yesterday, yes, on my special 21st December, that I have looked forward to for 20 years, I was in the laundrette.  

At 11:11 when I should have been meditating, I was giving Aaron a bath.

It seems for me, it is all about water at the moment, but then water does represent emotions.  RE: emotions, yesterday I felt angry all day.  I contacted my Aunt in Ireland, who got me into spirituality in the very early 90s and she sent me this reply:

In reply to ur text some people are experiencing unpleasant reactions to the new energies. Some are aching all over & others are having strong emotional upheavels. 

 

The new energies are coming in since wednesday and are very powerful and are stirring up unhealed & unexpressed stuff. Simple as that. Anything unsorted is surfacing to be released so we can carry more light. Not always easy but necessary. Its part of us moving into the higher dimensions.
The baggage has to go.

So if u have any issues that haven't been dealt with, they have to come out.

I've spent the day with a group of friends meditating in Knock & we had a very powerful day. Lots of lovely energies poured in on us.

But when i got up today i felt nausea & i did my Violet Flame mantra & it cleared. I knew it was just  'stuff'  surfacing.

"I Am a being of Violet Fire, I Am the purity God desires". Google it if u want more info.

Lots of love & blessings to u at this sacred winter solstice.

J  x

Funny, she mentioned aching all over, that was how I was on 20th and in fact 21st too.  Like I had a flu or something, when I haven't

Music as Therapy

I know those of you who are sane will already know this but it took a LOT for me to realise that the answer lay in music.

I have had one of those weeks where every day I felt like I got out the wrong side of the bed; it wasn't of all my own making - the husband has been challenging me with his words, behaviour and tone since Saturday onwards and it's been an upward struggle - this morning I could not even take solace from the various forums I am a member of, as it got to the stage where I thought if I hear one more human say ANYTHING remotely emotional I will eat my own head AND hat.

So the computer got turned off and Aaron and I went out in the sun.  We're only just back.

NORMALLY that would mean that while I washed the dishes I would have lbc 97.3 on, but given that I haven't got any room for voices in my head today I put Magic on (a channel I never listen to) and it is back to back music with no adverts and I was transported.

The first song was bon jovi, which was the absolute favourite of my best mate in secondary school - a warm glow enveloped me immediately and it was cheaper better than any therapy.

Next song up and I was being spoken to, but I don't know the name of the song, but the lyrics were certainly speaking to me and telling me to get on with it - my heart opened.

And once the last song had told me what I now need to do, the next song rather appropriately sang to me:
Nothing's Gonna Stop Us Now

So this weekend I need to get my other website up and running, and more often realise, that therapy can be found in music, and the artist's chosen lyrics!

I am feeling much better than I did earlier.

To anyone spiritual who may be reading, this 2012 shit is really really hotting up.

I won't go into details in this post, BUT there is INTENSE planetary energetic stuff going on, and it'll hot up for 12/12/2012 and for Winter Solstice 21/22 December.

We'll be a new world after that.  We've been building up to this for over 20 years.

I've had THREE newsletters about it, and it took till the 3rd one for them to say you might have bad moods, nightmares and depression.  Yeah, er, thanks for that.  Had it all.  Wish you'd sent me that a week ago though so I could have been better prepared ;-)

But it is now time to hang on tight as the rollercoaster of life is just about to speed up.  Either hold on or fall off.

I am going to have a damn good try at holding on.

Liska xx